Bernard Pivot BLOGFEST!

What is your favorite word? ~ Minion ... I don't know why other than it makes me laugh and I want one! 

What is your least favorite word? ~ Cunt ... enough said.

What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally? ~ Reading, Incense, laughter

What turns you off? ~ Noise and confusion 

What is your favorite curse word? ~ Fuck .. it can be used sooo many ways!

What sound or noise do you love? ~ Water 

What sound or noise do you hate? ~ Fingernails on a chalkboard ... random noise and confusion.

What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? ~ Hmmm other than author ... serial killer has often intrigued me. 

What profession would you not like to do? ~ Child Protective Services ... it would send me into the serial killer profession for sure. 

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? ~ "Ahhh there you are! Come on in." 

Fear ...

I don't know if it is a case of mid-manuscript blues or laziness. I've surpassed the 50k mark on my WIP and crept to a near halt. I have maintained my 5k a week goal for a month and a half now, but this week ... this week it is like I am afraid to write. I know that sounds crazy, but that is what it feels like. I don't know if it is fear of not meeting my weekly goals, I mean after all I am only answering to myself, or if it is fear what I am writing is just not going to be good enough as a whole.

My calender for February is brutal when it comes to things that will cut into my writing time. Hitting my 5k mark will be all but impossible with the mixture of no school days, dentist appointments (not to mention the haze I will be in after my wisdom tooth is cut out), working on normal days off, holidays, an anniversary, and two birthdays!

Spilling all that to my beloved writing partner,  Adriana , yesterday she quietly suggested easing up on myself. Her thought was backing off on the word count goal would allow me to breathe and break through the icy fear, allowing me to move forward, even if at a slower pace. Soo we are going to try that. I've backed the magic goal off to 2k a week for this month, obviously more when/if I can manage it. I ended up with with a little over 900 words yesterday, which are the first words of the week. Not a bad start.

Wish me luck.

Love,

MM